This is how it started today.

The universe is an asshole.

maybe just today, or yesterday

lying in bed staring at the wall at midnight

3am

wars bad politics rape lies fear child sex trafficking poverty loss

Childhood cancer

All the wrong things

Swinging between a deep natural rage against it all

And face plant surrender

I find myself in the sea

Again

In the early hours

How many tears have been spilled in these waters

In the arms of all creation

Like tides where rages come and go and suddenly ease

I breathe

I breathe

Falling in love with all that is again

Held in spaces between time

Free to feel

Seeing the way forward again

As clearly as I can see the waves in the sand

In the crystal clear depths below

Grateful.

Such a stupid small word

For such an enormous all-encompassing force

That brings you in from the storms that crush

To the eye of its peace

In a breath

Or two or three

Or more

Changing the chemistry of a tear

To Reflect the energy of a thought

And emotion

As it slowly spirals 

To rest.

With that

The day resets and begins again

With some love in my heart

Surrender in my soul

And Hope for what may yet be

I remember the knowingness

That we are eternal

We are unlimited.

The universe is still an asshole

But I can forgive it 

moving peacefully through my heart

into a different state of being

where I remain unbound.